Sometimes I wonder why I want to be a doctor. Not because of the studying or the work or the hours, but because of people. I have met so many people that are just, well we'll go with words like frustrating and infuriating.
I have to get some things off my chest and since my best friend is semi-clueless on most of it and my hubby can be just as frustrated about it as I can be here goes...
I played football a lil while ago. Everything was great on the team until Bernie and I started to become friendly. So the rumor mill began a-runnin' and I played it off but said I had I wicked crush on a fellow player that I knew was totally taken, hoping to deflect a little. It did, but managed to bring on its own set of issues. I worked very hard for that team. Drove for hours to practice, even when I wasn't medically cleared, was at every fundraiser, brought in more money that anyone on the team but hardwork demands no respect or even thanks.
When it came down to it I walked away with two friends, April and Michelle. April bailed, I'm sure because of her father (she doesn't have a mind of her own) once everyone found out Bernie and I were married. Michelle, well, I don't even know. She told me she was moving to CT last year and this year I find out through the grape vine that she's playing for the Roar. GAG ME! She was the one person I was always honest about everything with.
Bernie always wonders why I have a problem trusting people. Obviously this isn't a single isolated incident. It's with most social situations where I'm not quite gay enough or not quite straight enough. That sounds ridiculous but I wish I was making it up. I have found a very few people who treat me with the respect I treat them with. But every day in the ER I see people who I know nothing about where I get a brief history, their stats and vitals, hopefully fix'em up and send them on their way. Perhaps that is why medicine is good for me. The sense of satisfaction from helping someone without the bullsh*t.
That's my rant for the day.
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to
ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably
more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so
remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best
friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry
because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you
love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've
never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute
of happiness you'll never get back.
Don't be afraid that your life will end,
be afraid that it will never begin.
This morning, round 5am Bernie had a severe sugar low which meant we were going to miss our flight. Disney was very good about switching our reservations back a day but airlines are assholes...SHOCKER! Another 300 some odd dollars later I made sure my baby will be able to hang out with Mickey before he hits 30 :-)
On a lighter note it was nice to just have the day off...
Be home Monday night in time for work.
This is my schedule for the next week, it has been similar to the rest of the year so far only I just have two tests instead of a boat load of classes...
Monday: Upstate(University Hospital) 7-12:30 Final 1-4 Cortland Memorial Hospital 4-7
Tuesday: Upstate 8-6 GOOD DAY!!!
Wednesday: CMH 10-2 Upstate 3-12am
Thursday: FINAL 8am CMH 11-5 Upstate 6-12
Friday: Upstate 8-4 CMH 5-12am
Sat: CMH 3-12
Sun: CMH 10-5 YEAH!
Monday: MY ASS IS ON A PLANE GETTING THE HECK OUT OF NEW YORK!
Please factor in driving, sleeping, studying, cooking, cleaning and all that jazz. Classes start again May 24th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Who wants to be a doctor now????
(But really, I love it!) And my honey got me a sweet new pair of Crocs to wear with my supa sexi scrubs :)
When you're contacting someone and they respond to you but don't look at your name. When I talk to people I triple check to make sure I extend the courtesy of just spelling their name properly and what do I get in return???? Ashley Ashley Ashley!!!
C'est la vie.
A month and a half till the semester is officially over. Tack on a week till Disney :-D
Congratulations Rose, on your baby girl! Today she's one week old...she was born 3/10 at 11:22. She was 7lbs 15 ounces, 20 1/2 inches! I'm so happy for you.
Ok, everyone lies...no doubt, it's human nature. Not everyone lies to hurt someone else, or to save their own ass (because it rarely doesn't affect someone else.)
Now, is life better served surrounding yourself with as many people as possible, regardless, be happy about being treated great one day and ignore assholes the next?
Or are we better off by finding a few people, ones that are going to be there for you, that lying to you isn't done at anyone else's expense, ones who don't think they're better than you (overall, not just I'm better at math, etc)????
This is partially about me, but I'm looking around and seeing too many people getting hurt. People I care about or people I am caring less and less about.
Feliz spring break y'all!
It seems every year I get less and less sleep. I keep telling myself I'm going to go to bed earlier, just never happens. The other end of it, the getting up, sadly never changes.
At the end of the month we're moving. Our lease is up and I'm sick of living in a complex. Our new place is much bigger and has gorgeous hardwood floors. It's also closer to Bernie's office (in Dewitt.)
Mark called me the other day which was so awesome, I hadn't heard from him in what feels like forever. Every girl needs a homo-huney. He goes in for surgery on Fri so I'll be "praying" for him.
New york state is stupid. They screwed Bernie's strike checks up big time...like $150 off every check. One was short over $300. I'm go glad he's back to work. Everything is finally going much better. School is "lighter" this semester. Still heavy upperdivision classes, but nothing on T and Thurs.
There was an accident with a minivan and a cop just before my exit on 481, from what I read it turned into a HUGE pile up.
We were trying to figure out where to go on vacation, but Bernie's mother's birthday is right in the middle of the week I have off. Normally that wouldn't stop me, but it's her 50th and I think that's a pretty big deal. Speaking of which my gramps on Dad's side just turned 70! Holy oldness!
Checking my email etc waiting for the football game then out to dinner for my mom's bday.
boyfriend/girlfriend: Tom Abella, my lil snob from Jersey...oh Georgetown :-)
best friend: Amanda, from Cleveland
screenname: luciabug (I think)
kiss: Tom...yeah, I waited a long time but it was damn near perfect :-)
crush: Eddie in Kindy garden, the mullet used to be the shizzle
music: New Kids on the Block
car: in 99...2000 Pontiac Sunfire, totalled by 2000 :-/
stuffed animal: That I remember, the teddy from Kindergarden I still have
CD: I want to say the Lion King Sdtk, but who knows
job: delivering Newspapers
alcoholic beverage: Mike's hard lemonade, cranberry i think
movie seen: Wedding Crashers, brought the DVD up for the rents to watch
CD played: The Producers Soundtrack
bubble bath: When I lived with the rents???
time i cried: In the past week I'm sure
song you heard: Dad had XM on this morning, I remember CCR
8 Have You Evers:
dated one of your best friends: Dated and married
gone skinny dipping: yup
kissed someone and regretted it: 3 times
fallen in love: yup
lost someone you loved: yup
been depressed: The holidays do that to me
got in a fight: Every other day
flashed yourself in public: Sober?
7 States You've Been To (Not Lived In):
2- Florida (Does an internship count as living?)
(It's shorter to list the ones I haven't been to)
6 Things You've Done Today:
1- made breakfast
2- Played my mother's secretary for a bit
3- toyed with the idea of planning a vaca
4- checked my e-mail
5- Gave my mom a birthday hug
6- Peed like 5 times
5 Favourites (No Particular Order):
2- Doing research
4- Seeing my family
5- school and friends
4 People You Can Tell [Almost] Anything To:
1- to be happy
2- to be wealthy
3- to be wise ;-)
2 Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1- Be trilingual
2- have sex in the pacific ocean (be it water or boat)
1 Thing You Regret:
Cutting my hair!!!
Holy crap am I getting old! :-)
Quick holiday overview. Christmas eve with the inlaws...the usual Italian 7 fish feast. Christmas day at Rob and Dar's with my family. New Year's eve with his family, but my brother came down.
Gift-wise we did pretty well, my mom going crazy like usual, his mother making a very valiant effort and his siblings wasting their time. I know, that can sound ungrateful, but I'm the kind of person that would rather have a card that I knew took you time to pick out than parts of a make-up giftset. Anyone who knows me knows you're lucky if makeup debuts more than twice a year.
Anywho...got a job managing a restaurant but everyone is telling me not to take it because it would interfere with school too much. We're thinking about moving to LaFayette when our lease is up. It will be wonderful once B has his license.
Tons to do...